Date: 2023/09/12 - free again - Themes: mental health, hobbies, opinion

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In The End as we fade into the night

Finally finished my folding bicycle, sure it can be improved but every project should have a finish line and end date. Today i hid the nasty solder joints i did with epoxy putty. i should take more time to master simple rod welding, but once you get into TIG welding what's the matter of learning such archaic method right?
Now this project is gone, i have to compile some pictures and show y'all how i did. And my improvement points. But i spent the last 2 days running errands with it and i'm impressed by the capabilities of the materials i choose.

Racks on Racks

I also finished my Cinqx macro keyboard project! yes i'm currently waiting on 3D printing the last part of the board, that one is finished but also. BigStag60 and MC-1(midi controller) are currently waiting on funds for manufacturing. Boards are finished but there's still stuff to do for those projects. Such as case and custom keycaps for MC-1. Speaking of it, i look actively into FreeCAD crash course, because i encounter errors few times and i might need an external help for me to understand it properly and where i'm wrong.
I installed, CAD Sketcher addon for Blender.

On growing up and lacking obvious adult lessons

Maybe i'll make a bigger post about it.
I suck at being adult, in fact i'm the worst of my siblings, friends and chosen fam.(most of them are accomplished adults that are independant). Self reflecting a decade, i couldn't see that far. But i already knew.
When i talk to friends, familly and see everyone growing up fine, take their steps in life and myself being sluggish, and not really moving up but down or waiting on my step, its hard.

And with time i realized i lack stuff. Trauma aside which is a part of why i lack basic stuff. I find hard to grow up like that. I still have higher hopes for myself but sometimes i just want to lay down and rot, because i wasted so much time trying to grow up "normal" and failing.

Hm, yeah.